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Tuesday, 6 November 2007
EPISODE 1: PILOT
EVERYTHIN' S GONNA BE ALRIGHT Well hello..i have just made a new blog. Truth is, i had one a few months back but i realized i wasn't the exuberant kind. So am i contradicting myself now that i have restarted this blog?? Nah.. what motivated me is that today, i read a blog that was super super superb in a sense that the english was super wonderful, nor was there any singlish in it. Captivated was i that i decided to crack out of my shell and post something since it was the holidays and life was starting to get pretty mundane and all. Recently, i got to know a few people through certain mutual contacts. Though i may seem interested, i dont think we can click at all. So sorry to say this but as bitchy as i may seem, i was just being nice. For me, those who sms me and got a reply within an hour are the ones i really treasure most; family & close friends. It may really be a pain in the ass but when i take longer than that it probably means i dont give a damn or i am just throwing an attitude right smack in ur face. Somehow, at this moment of time, my mind just went blank... So it seems i have just got my mind back.. Honestly, i do feel lonely most of the time but do not mistake this as being emo. I may be at times be rather emotional and snap at anyone at any time. To be honest, i do deign for the time i meet my T.L(true love) but somehow one way or another, i am not totally desperate for one. You should never rush this things as if you do, you would only leave little time for love and affection to grow between both parties. Everyone needs a companion whom you can share your thoughts and feelings with but somehow, its not really that simple to find one. It does however depend on fate, time and chemistry. Do not get confused over the concept of finding friends and true love as they may be similar yet very different. One might ask, what would a naive fifteen year old know about all this crackpot, but truth is, after four failed relationship, is is not that hard to know. Nowadays, i actually starting to fall for someone. I do not really know why it took me five months to realize this but yes, we did start on a slow note. You told me right smack in my teenage face the first time we met that you do not expect anything out of us, though i was actually feeling otherwise. From that moment onwards, i told myself, not to get too close to you for the fact that i do not want to get myself hurt but somehow, i am addicted to you. Before this, i was addicted to someone else but with the help and support of friends, i got over that someone of whom i had feelings for over two years. I did not explain to you why i snapped at you the other day of what you told me at Paragon but i was feeling jealous. It dawned on me that i may not be the only one you have. As stupid as i may be, i packed my stuff and went to my cousin's place so as to get over what you told me and yes my cousin did give a very good advice which was also the reason why i went there in the first place. Truth is, i seriously think i was the one in the wrong. I had actually in the first place knew what kind of a person you are but my head wanted to pursue the matter and asked you that very question that made me oh-so jealous. Now i do agree that yes, curiosity does kill the cat. I do agree that you are a very nice person with a good opinion on the world and such, one who meets my criteria for a good chat, but some things are really just a turn off but yes, i am still waiting and let fate and time take its course. First things first. "I pledge that i would not use any Singlish in this blog". It does show a lack of sophistication and intelligence when you speak in broken english, complete with a polished vocabulary of Singlish. Some may say you need to blend in with locals but for me, i dont plan in living here my whole life. Anyways, as time is of the essence, i would like to thank the designer of my blogskin, for this simple yet what i really needed. For those who reads my blog, dont worry, i wont pester you to tag as i know it doesnt make a difference on what i want to post. Im ranting here but just bear with me. It may be due to my loneliness but yes, no comments needed. HAHAHAHA |