Tuesday, 20 November 2007
EPISODE 4: REVENGE OF THE BLACK BERMUDA
I BELIEVE IN YOU
Hmm, today is not my day to be honest... I was shivering in the morning, i slept only for an hour and found some very juicy juicy things about someone which made me kinda upset BUT, now i dont really feel a thing because im always like that, i can accepet the fact that some things just dont go our way. In the first place, speculation beats reality because when you speculate, you use your guts and the thing with me is that 75% of the time, my gut feelings works... Thats also one of the reasons why i dont like relationships, i dont wanna speculate anything that is goin on with my partner, as in who are they with, where are they and so on. I dont want to sound possesive and eventually, it leads to te fact that your partner things that they mean so much to you that they turn very ignorant and i totally hate that. Anyways, now reality sets in and i have to steer my direction away from all this crap and do some revision coz some bloody bitch said "as ur sec3 foundation is weak, even if you work very hard next year you wont get good results" So therefor, get that idea already in my head.
In other news, i have always liked club-like music like Calabria by Natasja Saad which also is currently my option as the best song to listen to when you get outta ur house to go for a date or whatever because the music gets u in the mood and somehow raise my usually low level of confidence when i get outta my house coz i keep thinking that maybe my hair looks ugly and or the possible situation where my pants are unzipped!
Anyways, its "BACK TO BERMUDAS" season!!! Hoho its been a long hiatus since i last wore bermudas and since then ive been wearing skinny jeans; which is totally unhealthy for the family jewels. So, now is crunch time to get that perfect pair of bermudas, probably a black one or smth like that, coz honestly, i have the money to go on a big shopping spreeeeee but i have no inspiration coz going shopping not knowing what to buy is like the epitome of stupidity coz u will only be wasting your time and the unfortunate person accompanying you...
Also, its almost the christmas season where lots of bargains are everywhere but, BEWARE! Choose carefully coz wad is on sale is probably old stock or last seasons' stuff whereby its not really nice to wear something that is a "has-been" right? So you get my point ok...
In other words, my neck is gonna break from complete exhaustion from last nights so therfor,
CIAO!
Saturday, 10 November 2007
Episode 3: The Goodbye
Change the world
I looked like a hippie in the pictures (laugh) What i wore for half the day were a belt tied around my forehead (looking like a fighter, laugh) and a 60's aviators which is totally see through!
Ok i do agree i miss the brats(laugh). On thursday, went to the airport to sent my aunt and her children off to Abu Dhabi. Anyways, when i go outta the room, i keep hallucinating that Izzati is on the computer and Boboy is playing psp on the sofa.. Oh right, i do agree i get abit cranky most of the time.
Talk about hallucination, i have in fact been hallucinating that my handphone is vibrating due to the receiving of a message. But when i pull it outta my pocket, there isn’t any. I need help? The fact that the past few days there hasnt been any sms from you make me feel funny but anyways, you get the idea. And another thing, remember when they said you use more muscle to frown than to smile, i totally agree. Probably because i have been frowning too much. I have no idea but people almost always mistook me as having a problem as I am always frowning. I think this is a sign of mild autism? After all, I am a bit anti-social. I don’t just open up to anyone for goodness sake.
Anyways, thanks for answering my “what are we” question (after so long!) Anyways, me asking you that is not to annoy you or anything. I just want to know, I needed a confirmation. I do not want to go out with another person knowing that you might be jealous. I guess you thought I desperately wanted a relationship with you but nah, being what we are now is already great. I actually enjoy hanging out with you and I do not expect anything in return. Anyways, thanks for yesterday… after a long day I don’t really want to head back home… I want to chill out for a while… I don’t know, but I really love your company. On another note, please don’t make me wake up at 630 in the morning again (it’s the holidays for goodness sake)
Meanwhile, yesterday I watched a movie with Syazwan. Long time friend of mine but I should have appreciated out friendship more. Truth is, the phrase “ a friend in need is a friend indeed” is oh-so true. I realized that a close friend of mine is really one of those. When you least expected it, they come and offer you advice or whatever. But there are a lot of plastic people in the world. They are your friends but when they find new ones, they abandon you and/or, they befriend you because they had a tiff with their good friend and you are only a bloody replacement. This may sound very selfish but best friends share secrets, friends and enemies. If not, you are just an ordinary friend, someone whom you can piss at anytime.
Okies anyways, I am a little cranky today(ok I used your patented word again) . I wore socks around the house today so that I can slide across the hallway and jump like a ballet dancer. I buy most of my socks from Daiso…For 2 bucks, the material is good!
Ok i do agree i miss the brats(laugh). On thursday, went to the airport to sent my aunt and her children off to Abu Dhabi. Anyways, when i go outta the room, i keep hallucinating that Izzati is on the computer and Boboy is playing psp on the sofa.. Oh right, i do agree i get abit cranky most of the time.
Talk about hallucination, i have in fact been hallucinating that my handphone is vibrating due to the receiving of a message. But when i pull it outta my pocket, there isn’t any. I need help? The fact that the past few days there hasnt been any sms from you make me feel funny but anyways, you get the idea. And another thing, remember when they said you use more muscle to frown than to smile, i totally agree. Probably because i have been frowning too much. I have no idea but people almost always mistook me as having a problem as I am always frowning. I think this is a sign of mild autism? After all, I am a bit anti-social. I don’t just open up to anyone for goodness sake.
Anyways, thanks for answering my “what are we” question (after so long!) Anyways, me asking you that is not to annoy you or anything. I just want to know, I needed a confirmation. I do not want to go out with another person knowing that you might be jealous. I guess you thought I desperately wanted a relationship with you but nah, being what we are now is already great. I actually enjoy hanging out with you and I do not expect anything in return. Anyways, thanks for yesterday… after a long day I don’t really want to head back home… I want to chill out for a while… I don’t know, but I really love your company. On another note, please don’t make me wake up at 630 in the morning again (it’s the holidays for goodness sake)
Meanwhile, yesterday I watched a movie with Syazwan. Long time friend of mine but I should have appreciated out friendship more. Truth is, the phrase “ a friend in need is a friend indeed” is oh-so true. I realized that a close friend of mine is really one of those. When you least expected it, they come and offer you advice or whatever. But there are a lot of plastic people in the world. They are your friends but when they find new ones, they abandon you and/or, they befriend you because they had a tiff with their good friend and you are only a bloody replacement. This may sound very selfish but best friends share secrets, friends and enemies. If not, you are just an ordinary friend, someone whom you can piss at anytime.
Okies anyways, I am a little cranky today(ok I used your patented word again) . I wore socks around the house today so that I can slide across the hallway and jump like a ballet dancer. I buy most of my socks from Daiso…For 2 bucks, the material is good!
Wednesday, 7 November 2007
EPISODE 2: ISSUE;CONFIDENCE
BOUT' YOU NOW
Recently, life has been a bit of a roller-coaster ride of emotions. Not that i m gonna get all mushy and stuff but then again, its rather true. Ever so often, i realize that life itself is rather humdrum and most of the time, i feel like a barrel so full of potential yet i lack the discipline and motivation to do what i want. To be straight on, i do not want to screw up my life. When i look into the future, i dont see myself as successful or have a great job that i want. What i do see is a big failure, someone who has the potential to succeed, but screwed up somewhere in life. And when i say somewhere, my first thought of it is now. I have been slacking, procrastinating and too carefree to think about my studies. I get too involved in the real world where the ugly truth is, i want to be there. I get involved in relationships, most of which i have no feelings for but kept holding on just because i want the attention given by the other party.
My previous post kept on blabbering about love and companionship. Truth is, in my opinion, you only meet three people in life that you really love (exclude ur family, friends and god). They are the people who makes the biggest impact in your love life and at the end of the day, it sets you thinking, boy why didnt i marry him/her! Truth is i may have found one, someone whom is really nice and i really have feelings for but im not sure about vice versa. My most recent relatonship was really a big mistake. I should have taken things slow but it did not turn out that way. That person asked for my number and by the third day of messaging, we were already in loving relationship. Oh why was i so desperate! The novelty lasted only a week and after that it was all downhill. Arguments, attitude and all the As (laugh), broke us apart. Truth is, i never loved that someone. It was only for the fact that i just love the attention.
Okies enough about love and all the shitty stuff. I do realize that im typing senselessly just to pass time therefor now i suggest that i stop and go do some other usefull stuff.
Tuesday, 6 November 2007
EPISODE 1: PILOT
EVERYTHIN' S GONNA BE ALRIGHT
Well hello..i have just made a new blog. Truth is, i had one a few months back but i realized i wasn't the exuberant kind. So am i contradicting myself now that i have restarted this blog?? Nah.. what motivated me is that today, i read a blog that was super super superb in a sense that the english was super wonderful, nor was there any singlish in it. Captivated was i that i decided to crack out of my shell and post something since it was the holidays and life was starting to get pretty mundane and all.
Recently, i got to know a few people through certain mutual contacts. Though i may seem interested, i dont think we can click at all. So sorry to say this but as bitchy as i may seem, i was just being nice. For me, those who sms me and got a reply within an hour are the ones i really treasure most; family & close friends. It may really be a pain in the ass but when i take longer than that it probably means i dont give a damn or i am just throwing an attitude right smack in ur face. Somehow, at this moment of time, my mind just went blank...
So it seems i have just got my mind back..
Honestly, i do feel lonely most of the time but do not mistake this as being emo. I may be at times be rather emotional and snap at anyone at any time. To be honest, i do deign for the time i meet my T.L(true love) but somehow one way or another, i am not totally desperate for one. You should never rush this things as if you do, you would only leave little time for love and affection to grow between both parties. Everyone needs a companion whom you can share your thoughts and feelings with but somehow, its not really that simple to find one. It does however depend on fate, time and chemistry. Do not get confused over the concept of finding friends and true love as they may be similar yet very different. One might ask, what would a naive fifteen year old know about all this crackpot, but truth is, after four failed relationship, is is not that hard to know.
Nowadays, i actually starting to fall for someone. I do not really know why it took me five months to realize this but yes, we did start on a slow note. You told me right smack in my teenage face the first time we met that you do not expect anything out of us, though i was actually feeling otherwise. From that moment onwards, i told myself, not to get too close to you for the fact that i do not want to get myself hurt but somehow, i am addicted to you. Before this, i was addicted to someone else but with the help and support of friends, i got over that someone of whom i had feelings for over two years. I did not explain to you why i snapped at you the other day of what you told me at Paragon but i was feeling jealous. It dawned on me that i may not be the only one you have. As stupid as i may be, i packed my stuff and went to my cousin's place so as to get over what you told me and yes my cousin did give a very good advice which was also the reason why i went there in the first place. Truth is, i seriously think i was the one in the wrong. I had actually in the first place knew what kind of a person you are but my head wanted to pursue the matter and asked you that very question that made me oh-so jealous. Now i do agree that yes, curiosity does kill the cat. I do agree that you are a very nice person with a good opinion on the world and such, one who meets my criteria for a good chat, but some things are really just a turn off but yes, i am still waiting and let fate and time take its course.
First things first. "I pledge that i would not use any Singlish in this blog". It does show a lack of sophistication and intelligence when you speak in broken english, complete with a polished vocabulary of Singlish. Some may say you need to blend in with locals but for me, i dont plan in living here my whole life. Anyways, as time is of the essence, i would like to thank the designer of my blogskin, for this simple yet what i really needed. For those who reads my blog, dont worry, i wont pester you to tag as i know it doesnt make a difference on what i want to post.
Im ranting here but just bear with me. It may be due to my loneliness but yes, no comments needed.
HAHAHAHA
Well hello..i have just made a new blog. Truth is, i had one a few months back but i realized i wasn't the exuberant kind. So am i contradicting myself now that i have restarted this blog?? Nah.. what motivated me is that today, i read a blog that was super super superb in a sense that the english was super wonderful, nor was there any singlish in it. Captivated was i that i decided to crack out of my shell and post something since it was the holidays and life was starting to get pretty mundane and all.
Recently, i got to know a few people through certain mutual contacts. Though i may seem interested, i dont think we can click at all. So sorry to say this but as bitchy as i may seem, i was just being nice. For me, those who sms me and got a reply within an hour are the ones i really treasure most; family & close friends. It may really be a pain in the ass but when i take longer than that it probably means i dont give a damn or i am just throwing an attitude right smack in ur face. Somehow, at this moment of time, my mind just went blank...
So it seems i have just got my mind back..
Honestly, i do feel lonely most of the time but do not mistake this as being emo. I may be at times be rather emotional and snap at anyone at any time. To be honest, i do deign for the time i meet my T.L(true love) but somehow one way or another, i am not totally desperate for one. You should never rush this things as if you do, you would only leave little time for love and affection to grow between both parties. Everyone needs a companion whom you can share your thoughts and feelings with but somehow, its not really that simple to find one. It does however depend on fate, time and chemistry. Do not get confused over the concept of finding friends and true love as they may be similar yet very different. One might ask, what would a naive fifteen year old know about all this crackpot, but truth is, after four failed relationship, is is not that hard to know.
Nowadays, i actually starting to fall for someone. I do not really know why it took me five months to realize this but yes, we did start on a slow note. You told me right smack in my teenage face the first time we met that you do not expect anything out of us, though i was actually feeling otherwise. From that moment onwards, i told myself, not to get too close to you for the fact that i do not want to get myself hurt but somehow, i am addicted to you. Before this, i was addicted to someone else but with the help and support of friends, i got over that someone of whom i had feelings for over two years. I did not explain to you why i snapped at you the other day of what you told me at Paragon but i was feeling jealous. It dawned on me that i may not be the only one you have. As stupid as i may be, i packed my stuff and went to my cousin's place so as to get over what you told me and yes my cousin did give a very good advice which was also the reason why i went there in the first place. Truth is, i seriously think i was the one in the wrong. I had actually in the first place knew what kind of a person you are but my head wanted to pursue the matter and asked you that very question that made me oh-so jealous. Now i do agree that yes, curiosity does kill the cat. I do agree that you are a very nice person with a good opinion on the world and such, one who meets my criteria for a good chat, but some things are really just a turn off but yes, i am still waiting and let fate and time take its course.
First things first. "I pledge that i would not use any Singlish in this blog". It does show a lack of sophistication and intelligence when you speak in broken english, complete with a polished vocabulary of Singlish. Some may say you need to blend in with locals but for me, i dont plan in living here my whole life. Anyways, as time is of the essence, i would like to thank the designer of my blogskin, for this simple yet what i really needed. For those who reads my blog, dont worry, i wont pester you to tag as i know it doesnt make a difference on what i want to post.
Im ranting here but just bear with me. It may be due to my loneliness but yes, no comments needed.
HAHAHAHA